July 18, 2006 - Plugging Along
What a day, and I am exhausted. Last night Lydia was up off and on until about 2am and then Miss Lilly got up at 5am. Plus stew worked a double last night, which I know the money will be good but I really need him home to help me. I have just felt so alone lately and trying to get everything done on my own has not been working for me. I just feel like at some point God will have taught us our lesson in life we need to learn and we can move on from this stagnant part in life. I hate being here, I hate not doing what we love and that has been working with youth in ministry. It is just so frustrating to think we aren't really doing much but I am assuming at some point we will move forward and that God will show us the way. I know that I have not been praying like I should, and I know I should. I know I need to be seeking God's face for His guidance in our lives. I don't want my kids to feel stuck in life.
Anyhow, the past couple of days have been rough. Stew just has been doing his own thing and ignoring everything I have to say, and today he burnt lunch really badly. It is just frustrating I just need help and I have so many things I need to get done but don't have the help. I am thinking us moving back to FL is such a Great idea more and more every day in fact if we could go today I would. But I really want to have jobs before we go. Aidan has tennis in the morning, and I HAVE to get chest xrays done on lilly because she has this weird cough/hacking thing going on that seems to be getting persistantly worse. (Who knows?)
Today I went and did get a chance to work out. I'll tell you, threaten your family you plan to move 1300 miles away because you don't get help and it is amazing how quickly they show up on your step to help you out. :) So mom came over and I went when I got back Lilly was crying and complaining because it hurt her to go potty. So I had to take her to the pediatrician, whom I don't care much for. I THINK she has a UTI but who knows the doc was kinda jerk and was just not overly nice to me. He was insisting that she had a rash on her bottom, but I told him that there wasn't one. But he insisted (without every looking) that there probably was one. I looked before we came so I KNOW there wasn't. He did give me some anti-biotics, I guess, just in case.
I have been more successful on WW's core plan. It is just easier to do because I can eat whatever I need to feel full and satisfied (as long as it is on the core foods list) but also I have 35 extra points a week that I can use however I want to. Plus every time I work out at Curves I get an extra 7 pts, so I almost don't have to use my extra points.
So far I am doing well with this new lifestyle, I just need to feel better. I keep telling myself this time next year I should be down a lot if not where I was when i got pregnant with Aidan. Maybe better, I don't know but I do know that I will get there. Which excites me.
Anyhow, the past couple of days have been rough. Stew just has been doing his own thing and ignoring everything I have to say, and today he burnt lunch really badly. It is just frustrating I just need help and I have so many things I need to get done but don't have the help. I am thinking us moving back to FL is such a Great idea more and more every day in fact if we could go today I would. But I really want to have jobs before we go. Aidan has tennis in the morning, and I HAVE to get chest xrays done on lilly because she has this weird cough/hacking thing going on that seems to be getting persistantly worse. (Who knows?)
Today I went and did get a chance to work out. I'll tell you, threaten your family you plan to move 1300 miles away because you don't get help and it is amazing how quickly they show up on your step to help you out. :) So mom came over and I went when I got back Lilly was crying and complaining because it hurt her to go potty. So I had to take her to the pediatrician, whom I don't care much for. I THINK she has a UTI but who knows the doc was kinda jerk and was just not overly nice to me. He was insisting that she had a rash on her bottom, but I told him that there wasn't one. But he insisted (without every looking) that there probably was one. I looked before we came so I KNOW there wasn't. He did give me some anti-biotics, I guess, just in case.
I have been more successful on WW's core plan. It is just easier to do because I can eat whatever I need to feel full and satisfied (as long as it is on the core foods list) but also I have 35 extra points a week that I can use however I want to. Plus every time I work out at Curves I get an extra 7 pts, so I almost don't have to use my extra points.
So far I am doing well with this new lifestyle, I just need to feel better. I keep telling myself this time next year I should be down a lot if not where I was when i got pregnant with Aidan. Maybe better, I don't know but I do know that I will get there. Which excites me.
